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i stopped writing these entries, deleted every post.
it was when i felt so fucking empty i couldn't even get up and do anything.
now i'm writing again.
i'm tired of hate, coming from myself towards other people. my agressive thoughts can kill. i don't want to hate anybody.
maybe every day in psychological loneliness makes me so fucking agressive. there are a lot of people around me, but anyway i feel so damn strange now, as if i've been in paroxyzm for 20 hours.
but i can't make myself feel better.
i don't take drugs now.
everything has changed.
but when i come here, i feel like i've returned to the very dear place, but the only thing about it that i can see - it is dead. forgotten. abandoned.
but if i open the door, i will find a lot of old memories and emotions.
Simonas, when you read this.. i want to say. last days i miss you very much. i'm neither drunk, nor high.
i know, it  had to end, but ... i still remember everything good what we had.
  • Mood: Lonely
  • Listening to: fleur
  • Reading: nothing
  • Watching: nothing
  • Playing: suicide
  • Eating: joghurt
  • Drinking: raspberry tea


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Artist | Hobbyist | Photography
Current Residence: Moscow, Russia
Favourite genre of music: post-punk, post-rock, electronic, goa-trance
Favourite style of art: psychodelic, digital, painting, photography, music
Operating System: xp
MP3 player of choice: ipod classic

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Thanks for the fav!
Wolfyone Sep 1, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
Thanks for the fav of my little sleeping boy!
MariAnrua Aug 3, 2012  Student General Artist
Спасибо за :+fav:!
Thanks a lot for the fav! :)
petrova Jun 6, 2012  Hobbyist
:happybounce: Thank you so much for the fav on 'sweet sensation',
it's truly appreciated :blowkiss:
thanks for the fave ^^
thanks for the :+fav: on Purple Potato Latte!
Ninsi Apr 7, 2012  Student Traditional Artist
Thank you so much for the fave ♥
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