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i stopped writing these entries, deleted every post.
it was when i felt so fucking empty i couldn't even get up and do anything.
now i'm writing again.
i'm tired of hate, coming from myself towards other people. my agressive thoughts can kill. i don't want to hate anybody.
maybe every day in psychological loneliness makes me so fucking agressive. there are a lot of people around me, but anyway i feel so damn strange now, as if i've been in paroxyzm for 20 hours.
but i can't make myself feel better.
i don't take drugs now.
everything has changed.
but when i come here, i feel like i've returned to the very dear place, but the only thing about it that i can see - it is dead. forgotten. abandoned.
but if i open the door, i will find a lot of old memories and emotions.
Simonas, when you read this.. i want to say. last days i miss you very much. i'm neither drunk, nor high.
i know, it  had to end, but ... i still remember everything good what we had.
  • Mood: Lonely
  • Listening to: fleur
  • Reading: nothing
  • Watching: nothing
  • Playing: suicide
  • Eating: joghurt
  • Drinking: raspberry tea


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Artist | Hobbyist | Photography
Current Residence: Moscow, Russia
Favourite genre of music: post-punk, post-rock, electronic, goa-trance
Favourite style of art: psychodelic, digital, painting, photography, music
Operating System: xp
MP3 player of choice: ipod classic

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schnuffibossi1 Featured By Owner Sep 3, 2012
Laphroaigh Featured By Owner Sep 2, 2012
Thanks for the fav!
Wolfyone Featured By Owner Sep 1, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
Thanks for the fav of my little sleeping boy!
MariAnrua Featured By Owner Aug 3, 2012  Student Interface Designer
Спасибо за :+fav:!
Ashleighsmiles Featured By Owner Jun 6, 2012
Thanks a lot for the fav! :)
petrova Featured By Owner Jun 6, 2012  Hobbyist
:happybounce: Thank you so much for the fav on 'sweet sensation',
it's truly appreciated :blowkiss:
metinp Featured By Owner Apr 10, 2012
thanks for the fave ^^
itachi349 Featured By Owner Apr 8, 2012
thanks for the :+fav: on Purple Potato Latte!
kaicrilith Featured By Owner Apr 7, 2012
:iconsomeconfettiplz: thanks
Ninsi Featured By Owner Apr 7, 2012  Student Traditional Artist
Thank you so much for the fave ♥
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